Sorry for the delay in today’s post.
I was up to after midnight last night talking to the amazing Darcy, from Graphically Designing, about my switch over to Wordpress. She gave me a great training session on how to use it.
I am hoping to make the BIG MOVE by Friday. I can’t wait for you to see my new blog design! :)
So I had to go to work this morning and this is the first chance I have had to post.
I started writing a post about how yesterday marked the ninth month of Mom’s passing. I wrote about how much has happened since she passed away… and then that deep pain of loss began rising to the surface again.
And it hurt.
Bad.
To be honest, I sometimes just try not to “go there”.
You know what I mean?
I try no to “go” to that painful place where the realization that I will never see my mom again here on earth lies.
Or the place where I realize I will never hear her sweet voice or feel her loving hugs again.
Or the place where I get angry with God about why He allowed this to happen.
Have you ever been “there” before?
It’s a very painful place, and honestly, I have been avoiding it.
But I know it’s a place I need to “go” to soon.
And I need to stay there a while.
And I will have to endure the hurt and the loss.
And I will need to cry.
A lot.
But today, I’m not going “there”.
I need to smile and laugh.
And Mom would be so glad I did.
I found a document in her computer files that made me laugh because it is so “Mom”.
She loved cute little quotes and sayings.
So for fun, I want to share this one with you.
Good Stuff to Know
1. God wants spiritual fruit…not religious nuts.
2. Dear God, I have a problem…it’s Me.
3. Growing old is inevitable…growing UP is optional.
4. There is no key to happiness…the door is always open.
5. Silence is often misinterpreted but never misquoted.
6. Do the math…count your blessings.
7. Faith is the ability not to panic.
8. Laugh everyday…it’s like inner jogging.
9. If you worry, you didn’t pray…if you pray, don’t worry.
10. As a child of God, prayer is like calling home everyday.
11. Blessed are the flexible for they shall not be bent out of shape.
12. A grudge is a heavy thing to carry.
13. The most important “things” in your house are the people.
14. When we get tangled up in our problems, be still. God wants us to be still, so He can untangle the knot.
Thanks, Mom, for still making me smile!
And thank YOU for letting me share the thoughts …
Beneath My Heart.
Traci
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Traci -
ReplyDeleteI completely relate. It has also been nine months for me. My beautiful, loving mom passed away unexpectedly on the 20th of September of a pulmonary embolism (clot).
Lately I have been thinking about the fact that I can "stop" myself from going "there" and it's comforting to know that there's someone else who knows what I'm talking about. Sometimes I will only allow myself to go to nearly the brink and go back rather then go all the way "there" completely.
Thinking of you.
- Natasha
Hey Traci
ReplyDeleteI competely relate too. My dad passed away in May 2002. Its been a long 8 years. Thank you for sharing those quotes from your mom's computer files. What treasures!
Thinking of you!
Marilyn C.
Beautiful post Traci!
ReplyDeleteI love those collections of sayings and I think they really convey the beautiful nature of your mum.
Your posts about your mom are always so sweet and from the heart. I love that song that sings about wanting to leave a legacy,, I think of that whenever I read the posts about your mom cause it sounds like she surely did.
ReplyDeleteTraci:
ReplyDeleteI'm not so sure what you are doing isn't maybe the best way. When my mom died, I 'went there' day after day. Eventually time passes, and God heals the ache and grief, but you will probably find yourself visiting her loss a little at a time, and time will still pass. You are still grieving, but maybe a little bit at a time.
I loved the quotes... they are keepers!
Hugs!
Sonja
Yes, Traci...I know that place all too well. But, you know what I've discovered? HE is always there waiting for me. He wraps His arms around me, lets me cry for a while, and always gives me enough strength to crawl back out of His lap and keep going.
ReplyDeleteIt's most definitely a process. I think of you and your family often. You are in my prayers, precious sister. It probably sounds unimaginable to you now, but I promise the pain does EASE with time. The loss is never gone, but acceptance eventually comes.
So much love to you, Traci. And THANK YOU for posting the "good stuff". It was wonderful to read. : )
<3 Laura